Hello Sir Mike,
First off, I feel I should apologize. For what exactly, I don't know. Anyway, I guess it should only be proper that I send my last email to the supervisor I have had in my almost 7-month stay with the company.
I submitted my letter of resignation a week ago, and I know I still have a few more weeks before its date of effectivity, but, as with most things, plans don't always turn out the way we expect them to. My current situation does not allow me to stretch my stay much longer. I know I owe an explanation, but again, as with most things, it's really very complicated. But since you have been really good to me, I'll try to make it simple. LOL. :-)
As you know, I have not graduated from college, and related to this, I have not been a very... conventional student my whole life. I will always find something to make the things I'm doing more parallel to my ideals rather than me adapting to them. Sometimes this proves to be effective and it works to my advantage, but most of the times it doesn't work out and I just come off as a selfish and arrogant son of a bee-yotch. LOL.
Anyway, bearing that kind of psyche, I know I shouldn't be expecting to fit in just anywhere. And so it happened that I was always looking for somewhere I could hang out and kill time until the next milestone in my life comes along. I would take on sidelines such as designing websites for some friends, writing articles for such and such underground publications, participating in so and so causes... Things which, although worthwhile to a point, merely provide a temporary recluse from 'the real world.'
And then come call centers. A few friends suggested I try it out, since it should be something very easy for me. So I decided to apply here since I know some people anyway. Two weeks after passing my resume, I was accepted and I was merrily on my way to another one of my would-be temporary hangouts.
So for six months, that's what I did basically. Hanging out. And being in E-Support helped a lot in pursuing that course. I liked what I was doing, since I was writing and not dealing with actual people (and contrary to what I mentioned during my interview, I'm not exactly a 'people person'), and the whole team was really great! In my mind I was content and really happy, but underneath it all, I have a suspicious feeling all of this wouldn't last. I know the universe would not allow it. It's not possible for someone to be happy this easily. In my mind, I thought I was cheating happiness.
And so finally the universe dealt me its mortal blow. I got transferred to Web Hosting, and suddenly I was not hanging out anymore. This was getting really serious, and if there's one thing in life I'm afraid of aside from reptiles and amphibians and creepy crawly things, it's getting serious. Nevertheless, I still tried to claw for whatever silver lining I could get my grubby little hands on. I did my best during training, and I tried to at least pretend to sound sincere when talking on the phone. I guess it was a bit successful since people were telling me I was doing well. I was actually kicking and screaming inside. I tried shushing it down, but it won't work. It was really getting serious, and I knew then I had to leave. So I did.
So this letter I wrung out from my brain was conceived. I need another break, and another place I could hang out in, and I know all of what I just said is not easy to understand (my mother even told me once, 'anak, ang weird mo'), but I still appreciate everything you have done as my supervisor. Although I do admit, I have met the most interesting personlities in my life within the motley crew of E-Support. That includes you, Sir Mike, and don't try to hide it. LOL. I'm going to miss you all. :-)
All the best,
Podi Alejandro
In other news, my father doesn't seem to be pleased with the idea, obvs. It's been a long time since he's spoken with me, and I'm not about to put up with it. NOT AGAIN, please. I hope he gets off my case. He knows there's no sense trying to fight through the bad blood between us. It's just really futile. We're just not listening to each other, we don't see eye to eye, we never understand one another, and it always ends up messy. It's been over twenty years. NOT AGAIN.
