"i hate that he succeeded (once again) in walking away the good guy, and i can't walk away without knowing what i'll be walking away from. if there was something to walk away from in the first place.
"i hate that i relished every moment.
"i hate that i can't even hate him with conviction. it's pathetic letting a half-baked 'fuck him' out to the void."
(this joy's life)
If, when you tell me you're at home, and you tell me you miss me, and that you would like to talk on the phone soon, and I reply I'm at home and we could talk now, and you say that you're not at home when three minutes ago you just told me you were -- is that what you meant when you said to me a couple of days ago that you wanted to be more spontaneous, random, and unapologetic?
Because really, that's just being mean and hurtful.
