Human beings are a terrible mess. And of the whole lot, I think that our generation -- all the way down the line -- is the point where the brunt of all of humanity's historical, technicolored fuck-ups have started to germinate. And I'm writing this all down because I am angry. YES, I am angry.
Angry because we have learned nothing from what our elders have gone through but arrogance. Enough arrogance to use words too big for our own egos to lug around, it's a wonder we can't stand on our own goddamned feet without keeling over all the goddamned time. Using words like not, or never, or can not, or will never. Enough arrogance to claim absolute meaning to abstract truths, such as I will never be happy, or I will always be alone, or I am never understood.
Maybe we've become too detached with what humanity has gone through and we have forgotten what is really important, or maybe we have become too self-absorbed, self-involved, or just plain selfish -- it's not really something I can fault people at, considering the different things one might have gone through -- I can't really say. But to claim to know oneself, to claim to acknowledge one's faults, but do nothing to change, and then say that one will never be happy and people will never understand? SUCH ARROGANCE!
I know hatred. I have gripped its cold, hard hand numerous times. But I also know patience and compassion, and the many wonderful things that they bring to people's hearts. I am, however, still very human -- whose heart can only withstand pain caused by arrogance and thoughtlessness so many times. I will keep silent and pray that one grows and learns soon enough, before more precious things are lost.
