The Past Few Weeks

Life had become pretty simple and straightforward the past few weeks. Work during weekdays, then recharge at the Makati house during weekends. I have become very grateful to the little moments of insanity which accentuate some of my days, enough to keep my nerves keen and sharp, reminding me not to get too dull-witted and absent-minded -- things that I am teetering on the edge to be. Despite that, however, at least three times a week I've been tempted to just up and leave -- leave the evil conspiracies familiar to corporations behind, leave the backstabbing and the cruel and the clueless and incompetent, leave everything I have always believed to be corrupted and free of morals -- and finally, finally rein in my errant dreams again and LIVE. But then I am reminded that things aren't that simple, and that I can't afford to stray from this precarious, ribbon-thin path I have recently begun to walk, not until I am sure of my footing, and my future more or less acquires some tangibility I can trust.

I have also learned to become grateful for the moments of lull in between -- moments which I greedily hoard because it is only during such times when I am able to tune out and read again. Such little moments I have found whenever I commute to and from work. Jeepney rides, bus rides, and train rides have become activities which I look forward to doing each day. Being in the middle of a crowd of commuters is, in its own way, more calming and peaceful than any air-conditioned office cubicle. As a matter of fact, the month past has given me enough time to finish three books which I am glad to have purchased -- specifically, the Old Kingdom Trilogy by Garth Nix.


Tomorrow, I start on a new series, The Watch Tetralogy by Sergei Lukyanenko. I am quite sure I will enjoy reading the books, and I can't wait until it introduces a new playground for my imagination to get lost in, much like how the Old Kingdom did when I was reading about it. If it does, and if its pull is strong enough (which I'm sure it is), I'll be sure to write down all about it.