Won't You Hold Me Down

Life is just that way. There are times when I get tired of it all, and feel like I just want to die. But there are also times when everything is so amusing I want to go on living forever. It's like the scene in cartoons when a little angel is standing on your right shoulder and a little devil on the left, and they're fighting over who will win. My will to live and my desire to die were the same as the angel and the devil -- it was a fifty-fifty tug-of-war raging in my soul. Gravity seemed to be the only thing holding me down.

-- Sakumi, from the book Amrita by Banana Yoshimoto