Throwing Demons Out To Dry

It's hell keeping it to myself really, so I might as well come right out and say it.

I've been sleeping around a lot recently.

Yeah. Since the year started, I've been sleeping around. I don't know what triggered it... but now it honestly, utterly, irrevocably feels like I'm leading several separate lives: the seemingly normal, almost sane, relatively grown-up me; and the... the... other me. And sometimes a third shows up, a middle ground... but that's not the point. There used to be no distinction.

This feels insanely, mentally, physically, emotionally unhealthy. I need to get myself back together. I have to stop sleeping around while I feel it's still early. While I still have distinction for the other versions of me. I may sometimes feel like I'm not leading a REAL life anyway, but this kind of escapist fantasy is too much to handle and I can't stick to it. (Realized people can be cruel, heck, even more cruel in an unreal world.) I need to get back to doing things I enjoy doing. Anime. Music. Writing. Reading. Sketching.

.....

Maybe I even need to start dating again. Heh. :*|