There's A Fine, Fine Line

The Philippine production of Avenue Q is holding its second run this month. I checked the show dates the other day and apparently, the only possible time I will be able to watch is tonight. And guess who first popped into my mind to invite? Right -- R. So after much trepidation, I finally asked him yesterday if he wanted to go -- to which he hasn't replied up until now.

I guess it's what I should have expected, all things considered. But I can't be blamed for hoping, nor for holding on. After all, I made the decision myself. And although I have been nothing but wounded since, I cherish these scars as if it were him I was touching, as if it were his skin on my skin. If this is going to stretch on to forever, then, gladly, I accept.

There's a fine, fine line between together and not
And there's a fine, fine line between what you wanted and what you got.

Kate Monster, Avenue Q