Yesterday I was out on a date all afternoon -- a highschool date, to be exact. You know, walking around the malls, checking out bookstores and specialty shops while eating shaved ice steeped in strawberry syrup, then movie, then dinner, then helping out with a little shopping, walking him home, and then a sweet, sweet good night kiss (not really) before going home myself. It was refreshing, and I was brimming over with giddiness, the intensity of which only a 16-year old can match. I'm happy enough, yes, and one thing I can be thankful to 2007 for is that I was taught the value of taking things easy. Not to panic. Relax. Steady lang. If this works out, then great! If not, then that's fine, too. He's one of the good guys, and I'm glad we met.
Recently, I was able to watch the movie, Love and Other Disasters, and what one character, Jacks, had to say about love made absolute sense: "Maybe love isn't always a lightning bolt, you know? Maybe sometimes it's just a choice. I don't know if Paolo's the love of my life, but I've decided to give him the chance to be. Maybe true love is a decision -- a decision to take a chance with somebody. To give to somebody without worrying whether they'll give anything back, or hurt you, or if they really are the one. Maybe love isn't something that happens to you; maybe it's something you have to choose."
And it's the exact same thing I've been trying to learn the past few years. So far I'm slowly realizing the truth -- and reality -- in it. Romance is good and it's nice seeing it occasionally happen in one's life, having a glimpse of it in books and films and art, but life in its entirety will never be congruent with it. "The truth is way too complicated and unsatisfying and hard to believe." And the hilarious irony is that's what we're stuck with -- the twisted beauty and complexity that is real life.
In other news, The Bunniez gifted me a neat kodachi for Christmas!
And it's time to put it to good use... camwhoring! Wehehehe.
