Why Sometimes I Couldn't Care Less

the team i'm in is supposed to handle emails. i would sound like a whooping big ass wimp if i say something like, "omg, thank goodness i don't have to contend with calls and talk with people," but then again, if there's one thing i'm not afraid of proclaiming to the whole world, it's me being a big ass wimp. so... OMG, THANK GOODNESS I DON'T HAVE TO CONTEND WITH CALLS AND TALK WITH PEOPLE.

one catch though, we might sometimes be called in to take voice calls if the queue goes really high. the trainors said it doesn't happen often, and it will be voluntary for us, but still.

anyway, not surprisingly, most of my teammates think that it was such a big disappointment. they said they'd rather answer calls or be transferred to another skill set. "it's more CHALLENGING."

now that's a big word for me. challenging. for me, words like that belong in another parallel universe altogether. but hey, to say i'm afraid of challenges would be a bit inaccurate. for me, the word challenge is just that -- a word.

if, for instance, a professor or someone who knows better poses some situation as a challenge, it would affect me neither positively nor adversely. blah. ok, so right, it's categorized under the "challenges" section. for me it's just another ordinary situation. ordinary enough for me to sometimes forget, or disregard, or not just take seriously. if i do it, i do it; if i don't, i don't. of course, I'D RATHER NOT, but for all intents and purposes in this hole of a life, i still try to do it. sometimes.

goes the same for DARES. i'm always, "what the hell?" so what if it's a dare. i'd do it if i want to, i won't if i don't.

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ok i think my soul just lost experience points. sigh. next life probably i'd devolve into some dirt-chewing animal. no different from what i'm going through now, come to think of it. heh.