Permanence

A college friend who's taking up post graduate studies in China is spending his Christmas vacation here, and told us he might be staying in China for good. And another friend is being considered for termination from work. And still another friend mentioned her intentions of resigning. The other day I looked up the word 'permanence' on Google. I wasn't convinced.

If there's one thing that makes me afraid, it's the absolute uncertainty of things. Right now, things could be going well, but it could change any minute, any second. One might get a txt or a phone call or an email bringing a news which could change one's life either for better or for worse.

I know we shouldn't stress ourselves thinking of things we don't have control about. That we should focus more on what's happening at the present... but I guess it's just my nature to worry. THINGS ARE GOING TO CHANGE. That's a fact. True, we're going to lose a lot of things, and true, we're going to win a lot of things back. But right now... I can't be sure if what I have right now are worth losing...

So You, I think you'd do better in China.

And You, please treat this as a learning experience.

And You, give work a chance, please?

And You, hurry up. I'm gettin' cold.