Thinking Positive

he is a talisman. an amulet i hold on to, however weak its glow, however shallow its promises may seem. i want to believe it will be enough leverage for me to move on and go forward with my life. enough walking in the dreamworld, time to wake up.

it's such a sweet idea tho (if not uber corny): him seeing me as his big brother even though he's two years older than i am. heck, i feel like i'm the all around big brother anyway, what's one more? throw in a few (well, maybe not a few) tints of sexual attraction for good measure, and the chemical reaction is complete.

right now i hope this amulet of mine works out. i try to hold on to anything i can. i'm desperate. i want to wake up. but if it doesn't... well...

i hope it does.