What my mind was last night, was entirely made of the stuff which most probably are the same as the kind of chaos which permeated the universe before the world was created. I may always seem like a mass of incomprehensible nerves, but this was what was careening through the cosmos of my mind while I was quiet, or when you were talking, or behind what I was actually saying:
For someone who is disarmingly arrogant and formidable in character, thank you for letting me see your frailty. Thank you for trusting me, even though you know I may be teetering on the edge as well. You've always been brave, and I guess you were never afraid of falling off anyway.
Lying down in the dark, with my arms around you and your head resting on my chest, I feel like every light mote of thought in me would implode and initiate a new big bang. A feeling as intense like that is something I don't think one would be able to deny at all.
Look, I could go on and on describing every detail, every groove and curve, every prickle of emotion in me... but I don't think that would do justice to the intensity of what I'm really feeling for you. Let me go to you, let me hold on for a few moments longer. One lifetime may not be enough to show my appreciation for last night, but let me try. And if in the end, I would still not be able to satisfy you and you would want fly away to chase another dream, I will let you go just because that's what you really want.
I don't expect you to believe me, because what are words right? Just like what Alice said, "I can't do anything with your easy words." So please stay for a while. Collapse in my arms like you say you always want to do. Let me kiss you. That would be the time when you believe.
