Unchanging Perspectives

Interesting Saturday yesterday was. Watched A Series Of Unfortunate Events with Chris and Prinz at Eastwood Cinemas. It was my... third time to go there. Very beautiful place, albeit the complicated layout. I should have taken pictures.

Again, this was one of those movies which greatly "moved" me. How real and honest it was... to me at least. It reinforced an idea on how fair the universe can be, when seen from the big picture. As opposed to when seen closely, life can look really distorted and insanely unfair. As humans, we need to know when to see life through the big picture, and when to look at it closely. I for one, am still having trouble distinguishing when to do which.

Like right now, for instance. Looking at the big picture (or more exactly, the big picture of MY life), I don't really think working is of much import. "Working" for me, has so much as a value of "hanging out." Real life is something that exists outside of work.

And what exists outside of work for me right now? Nothing yet. Which is equivalent to saying, I don't have a life, when seen through the big picture. Funny that.

Now zooming in and looking closely, I need this job. Our training will last for three more weeks and to pinpoint my exact feelings, I'm getting mighty impatient. So much, that my mindset is blowing up to massive proportions.

Even this voice inside my head is getting impatient and it's saying, "SO HURRY UP AND DIE ALREADY, HUMAN."

And that's what my life is like thus far, when seen both through the big picture and when zoomed in. Not a very pretty sight.