Seriously

Honestly. I'm still not over it. After one week, I'm still not over it.

TAKE ME BACK TO E-SUPPORT!!! I love E-Support... I love writing emails... I love writing... I have fun with my teammates... The Supervisors are the best... The QA Analysts are great company... And I was about to apply for a Tier 2 position... I was really, HONESTLY happy there. :'(

And for all of that just suddenly being wrenched away from me, just when I'm starting to get the hang of it, JUST WHEN I'M STARTING TO FEEL LIKE I'M DOING SOMETHING WORTHWHILE, DOING SOMETHING I REALLY WANT TO DO... Well it really sucks bigtime.

(Oh, you can just imagine how much I'm seething right now, I'm not making sense at all!)

I'm not going to apologize for sounding like a brat. I've been a good boy. I DESERVE THINGS THAT I KNOW ARE GOOD FOR ME. If the universe is going to conspire to make me miserable, I'm not going to take it like a sitting duck. If the universe doesn't want this for me, then I'm going to look for my happiness elsewhere, and I'm going to find it, even if I die AGAIN trying.

Huff.

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UPDATE: (Getting home from work.) Oh who am I kidding? I won't be going back to E-Support. I'll be staying here in effing Web Hosting, and I can't do anything about it. The worst part is, everyone is cheering me on. Everyone's telling me I can do it. The guilt is eating up my insides like a hyperactive mutant leech.

Look, I guess I can, but I don't want to. I don't want, don't want, don't want, I DON'T WANT TO! :'(




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AFTERTHOUGHT: I'm bingeing on blueberry cheesecake and nothing is going to stop me. (Well, maybe I'll stop after a couple of slices. There's only so much sit ups can do.)