A Lesson In Responsibility

I was very apprehensive to talk about it a week ago. Heck, I was apprehensive to even THINK about it then. But I guess right now I'm kinda over it.

So yeah, I got mugged. I won't go into details anymore, bottomline is I lost all the money I had 'til the next payday. The experience was very mind-numbing to say the least. When I got home, I was feeling pale all over.

There were a lot of "I could haves and I should haves" running through my mind then and I wasn't able to function well for the next few days. I was always priding myself on knowing what to do when faced with a situation like that. Turns out I wasn't.

The experience didn't do any good with trusting people either. I may still seem very agreeable but deep down I will always be feeling taken advantage of. Related to that, I can't even trust places as well. Before, I used to walk along that area in Makati at the oddest of hours and I wouldn't even be afraid of missing a step. Now I feel like I shouldn't go there anymore.

I didn't tell anyone about it except for a family member and a close friend since mostly I just wanted to forget about it. I even "atoned" for it by not having lunch the whole week. (Well, mostly because I don't have money to buy lunch, and I didn't want to borrow money from anyone.) :P

Anyway, I'm feeling ok about it now. Good thing I got my pay already. I worked hard for this and I'm going to try to learn to be more responsible for it.